well gee.

i havent been online for wellllllll a longggg time. lol

not much is new. maybe that will explain it.

SWIM SEASON = OVER. uhhhhh im not going to comment on this. im going to be nice.

chillin. hangin out wiht ange and friends. i really really miss propeller hat boy. oh well.

the 14th came and went. oh well . i hate valentines day anyways.

the 15th came and went. oh well. i dont know what to say about that.

hey everybody--- i got a new cell #  and its 943-3916. call me up yo. heck yessss.

oh and hos.... i myspace it up now too. its penitentryxfire@aim.com. i love something unpredictable.com lol. .

lattttttttter homies. love you all. i really do. i miss my friends.

Currently Listening Good Mourning By Alkaline Trio see related

I PROMISE THAT IF YOU COMMENTED ON TEH LAST POST.... I WILL COMMENT YOU BACK ASAP. AND I LOVE YOU. kthanks.

if you love me, you will read my blurb.

yOu thoughT you Knew. But bOy wEre yOu wRong.

@i wear glasses cuz i am truly blind.

@i waer a retainer at night cuz i had braces for forever.
#i have a weird fascination for chick flicks, sweat pants, and cookie dough icecream.
@i love poetry. Reading it. writing it. whatever.
@the popular kids are bitches.
#girls who worry about their weight by drinking zero calorie water and tofu protein shakes scare the crap out of me. it a girl cant eat a steak and throw a football, then move to LA.
@gay guys are a girls best friend sometimes.
@theres nothing better than playing football or swimming wiht the people you love most in the rain.
#long distance never works.
@i cant stand moody people who make it clear that you are their second choice and then expect you to do their hw.
@i love old kiddy movies. hell yes to sandlot, the aristocrats, the goonies, 16 candles, the little rascals, slappy and the five stinkers, 3 ninjas, i <3 lucy, and cinderella.
#i sleep in boxers (?btw) and a tshirt. i only wear pajamas when i go to someones house.

@i dont like slutty girls, but theres no point in being frigid. uhh HIGHSCHOOL? live it up, drink it down.

@i have so many inside jokes i lost count.
#my house, small but cozy, contains a weird assortment of indoor trees. from metal to pinecone, which shows my moms fucked up decorating tastes.
@im in love wiht the city of boston. the lights, the chrome all wrapped up in beautiful architecture and history.

@i lov ehte kings of comedy.
#pimps in purple are funny as shit.

@my best friends piss me off more than anything sometimes BECAUSE they know me better than anybody else.
@im addicted to photography.
#i have so much i want to say to people but absolutely cant cuz i dont wanna hurt people. i have lost my ability to say what is on my mind sometimes.
@my favorite stores are old navy, nike,and american eagle.
@when i get hurt i close off or jump into something i shouldnt.
#i wanna make a difference. i know that sounds cheesy, but i dont care. i dont knwo if i want to major in journalism becuase of my passion for writing, or psychology because of reasons i dont want to talk about.
@13 is a number from HELL.
@my mom is a total psycho. my dad is selfish and doesnt care.
#i <3 polka dots and stripes.
@for the past 3 years my parents have forgotten my bday party.
@gatorade + gingerale is the shit. yo.
#i hang dried roses wiht ribbons on the string of xmas lights in my room.
@i can never get my mind to decide on something. i usually wnat what i cant have.
@i use secret platinum glacier ice deoderant(*strong enough for a woman*) but i usually smell like vanilla.
#i own a cowboy hat- the real kind- and it, along wiht a special binder, are my most prized possessions.
@i used to do pottery. Great pottery. hten i got really distracted, and ive seriously never been artistic, and i cant draw a stick figure to save my life, but i <3 to pot.
@philosophy and cultre intrigue me.
#so cheesy-but i want a record deal. i have a passion for music.
@i would love nothing more than to lock paris hilton, lindsay lohan, hillary duff, the olsen twins, the simpson sisters, and Demi Moore(just cuz she married ashton) on an island in teh middle of the ocean.
@i love veggie tales, and pearls.
#i can never seem to escape teh smart girl persona, and anymore i dont give a shit what people think.
@i think decorative glass and candle are the most impressive form of decoration.
@im sick to death of trying to manage all the shit that i do.
#i cant cook. dinner is ready when the smoke alarm goes off.i burn easy mac.i guess that rules out stay home mom. HAHAH. rite.
@i have never been beaten at twister. OH YES.
@i havea lot of scars.
#as soon as i say i miss those days, ill be back to present wishing i could forget.
@i get extroidinarly dark in the summer. im indian.

@i miss my brother, and my dog.

#sometimes what you see isnt what you get. you just might have to look closer to see it, even if you have no clue what your looking for. then again it might be right in front of your face.
@my chucks are a source of pride.
@i made a mistake. a BIG one.

i read 3000 pages this weekend of literature (come on crhs, you know books. the thingys wiht words and pages. there we go.) it can put somebody in a really insolently philosophical place.

smart girl is back.

vavoom son.

life sucks.

Currently Listening They're Only Chasing Safety By UnderOath see related

yes. my eye is redish purple. yes it hurts. as suprising as this may sound.. i did realize that i look like i got the hell beat out of me by a big fat biker.

yes i hurt my wrist and fingers. yes. they hurt too.

yes. i am fine.

no. dont worry. im good.

"woa. go sam. remind me never to make you mad."

"im proud of you!!!"

--- i love encouraging people.

new subject.

crazy ass mother fucking saturday night so i wont be online for a little while.... uhh 2 weeks?

no phone. no tv. no music. no computer for 2 weeks.

this sucks ass.

and i miss lucky.

whatever. shit happens.

exams. swimming. <3.

Currently Listening Beautiful Letdown By Switchfoot see related

well...

i guess

NOTHING

is ever

for sure.

screw this.

yes.  i am sick.

no i do not feel good.

yes i am down in teh dumps.

no i am not at my best.

nahimean sugah?

i thought so.

im sad. i <3 lauren. she said i was pretty and made me cookies.

i swam for 2.5 hours this morning. i swam 6400 yards. or 19200 feet. or 3.63333 miles. whichever you prefer.  yes. i am hurting. and wobbling. oucheez.

i am tired. i miss my friends. <3.

christmas was ok.. eeehhh. my crazy vietanmese aunt wanted to go bust an ass. and you know how scary little asian women are when they get mad. hahaha. well.. she said the turkey tasted like shit.

I LAUGHED. it was funny. .

im goin to first nite.. on new years eve. it is fun. and i enjoy myself thouroughly.

send out a message yo and let a sister know if you wanna chill wiht me there.

peace homeskillets.

Currently Listening Life on Display By Puddle of Mudd see related

VINDICATED.
I AM SELFISH I AM WRONG.
I AM RIGHT. I SWEAR IM RIGHT.
SWEAR I KNEW IT ALL ALONG.

rofl.

kelly has hobo hands and a broken lighter. vin diesal drives fast. :-0. my space layouts can mean something.  grilled cheese and instant messanger are really fun. . there was a time.. when we couldnt see my floor through the cookie wrappers. YUM. we learned jessica simpson likes to shake her ass. (eew) mrs. ikea santa clause.

LONG overdue.

                        love                     peace                   WAR

kelly crashed wiht me last nite.. HAHAHAAH. (*insert hysterical laughter here*) HAHAHAH.

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so yeah you said you heard this one
maybe lived it twice, but wiht bias on my side.

swear ive got a different one to be laid to line,
and wiht a dime for your advice.

you never saw a man wiht bigger eyes that understand
he said

good luck you know you better just forget it
cause love is never in the same place that you left it.

i said you wouldnt understand.
she was perfectly described.

ok.. well scratch that last entry. whatever.

anyways.... so.. yea. not much good has happened and i really dont feel like complaining and delving into the bad. so what can you do.

came home and took a bubble bath in warmish water (i cant be in hot hot water for a long time. idk y.)wiht candles and my cd player cuz im sooooooo out of it. i just... need to let my body crash.

i will not be swimming at the next swim meet. i have family stuff on monday and cant make it to practice. so i am benched next meet. no comment.

i just ..... really really wish people would leave well enough alone. not kidding. i just want to drop that shit. i mean come on now. i am so sick of people acting out junior high all over again.

tuesday nite was cr swim meet vs. sussex central. boys killed. girls won by one point. yes. how cool.

wednesday- chorus concert. had a solo. did ok. eeeh.

today... practice. the usual. not much. just hte usual. lauren was a sweetie and gave me cookies!! haha. and candy. LOTS of candy. and some other people were really cool about that stuff too so thank you to everybody i got presents from. you all didnt have to do that. it was really nice of you!! i loved all of them!!

and poor ehtan.. i love ethan. i just want to hug him. and slam OTHER peoples head into a locker. stupid whores. cough no need to even mention any names cough. i gave him soup and he gave me a flower. i heart htat kid like woah.

and hey you knwo what? josh harris.. your not that bad!! haha. im kidding. i hope you feel better and stuff starts working out... have faith. your awesome. you know im here. umkay? umkay!

tomorrow.. well not much on my agenda. ryans sposed to come over and well chill and bake cookies and do fun stuff. test my computer theory. lol. should be a nice change. no practice.

and then... i have the million hours of homework to take into account. tahts always fun. so everybody is crashing at my house tuesday to do their ap tests. fun. lol. no really. it will be fun. haha.

but hey.... one good thing. i learned about firecrackers, trampolines, handcuffs and the funny ass things you can catch on camera.  and i got the detailed version. i roll hard like that. haha. thank you josh!! or i never would have known!!!

anyways... im out. im tired. im sore. and yea. whatever. i love you all. later.